August 31, 2015

 

Autumn knocked gently this morning, enwrapping the neighborhood with a soft blanket of chilled air.  I for, one, was so grateful.  Soon it will be time for the faux fireplace and games with the tribe.  I stayed in bed, even though it was past my usual get-up time.  I had no after-drop-off appointments and this strep is morphing into a chest/head cold.  It’s “literally”  irritating <imagine Dr. Evil from Austin Powers air quoting>....

I headed to work.  I was sitting in on an interview and wanted to experience as much as I possibly could.  The woman we interviewed was so incredibly competent, it illustrated the width in my lack of experience.  I have immense, strong, reasonable, pretty good faith in my ability as a therapist, but I also know how much is gained from being and doing and experiencing this modalities.  Gestalt therapy?  I have lived this, but am I able to answer as perfectly and succinctly as she did?  Hells no (as an aside, I know that should be spelled with a hip “z” but I am driving this bus and I refuse to become a “z”er)!  After the interview and all of us agreeing that, ohmyYES!  She is amazing (she really was), I had to stay behind and talk to the clinical director, admitting my fear, that yes…she is wonderful and oh my goodness she has so much more experience than I, but…<shrinking ever smaller>  “I want to work here, too…”  I was assured that she wasn’t there to replace me, but be there in addition to me, which made me feel a lot better.  Yet…still.  I am so inexperienced.  Level 14 group home, that’s what I need.  Sweet Elena…  told me I am far too harsh with myself and I should lighten up.  She has no idea how ‘light’ I am, compared to 20 years ago, I’m a damn helium balloon nowadays….

 

And so, we come to the bees.  The bees are dying since no longer planting cover crops like clover and alfalfa.  We use herbicides. We use pesticides.   Bees are responsible for a one-third of all the world’s crop productions, which couldn’t exist with them.  This (below) was the topic of today’s NPR show I listened to as I left work today (and the TED talk it was based on)  And I began to do what the show’s guest said was such a downfall of humanity...reflective thinking.  Instead of working, doing, BEEing <excellent pun>… I think.  In circles.  Humanity is so preposterous.  Sure, great things have been invented, amazing things have been done…but for what?  For a millionth of a nanosecond in the measure of Time, humanity has existed and look at the terrific job down in the last 150 years, our “greatest” era.  So when I saw a car ahead of me with the bumper sticker “No worries!  God’s in control,” I sighed.  Do those that rule the world know this?

 http://www.ted.com/talks/marla_spivak_why_bees_are_disappearing?language=en#t-21182

At home, right to bed to work on…stuff.  This morning the Schweizerische Gesellschaft für Beratung (Swiss Association for Cousneling) responded to my letter, thus I was looking at documents which had no meaning for me.  This is a problem.  If I cannot (with my B1 CEFR levels which is intermediate) speak to colleagues or fully comprehend what is being said, well, then Houston, we have a problem.  I did more assessments and did a little more language work.

I also made more reservations…this time in an AirBnB near the airport for the first 4 days.  I’m not sure why in that location???  I guess because the AirBnB place is less costly and the people are so kind, but really?  Kloten????  Ah, well…  dammit.  Seems like we’re in Costa Rica all over again.  But this time will be different.  Kind people and things happen they way they do…right? I mostly finished my other case study and started look at Capstone, while I will begin in the next few days.  Movin’ right along.

Pictures: Air quotes.  How do we accurately convey ourselves without them;  The point in my life where I was Gestalting allover myself; Outside...it still exists; My tribe - one observing the banana  plantation, the other resting; those beautiful trees on the way to Caño Island...