November 1, 2014

I slept hard and long this morning, I didn't want to wake up. When I finally did get up,' it was almost 11 o'clock. Maggie had texted me numerous times about getting her at her friends house.   I was nervous...afraid to see what was going to happen with Ethan after the evening we'd had last night. I looked in his room - he had re-decorated the entire room, something I often did when I was in trouble.  I didn't see him, so continued looking around the house and couldn't find him anywhere.  Shit.  Was I going to have to call the sheriff already? . Then I went back to his room and looked under his duvet...he was snuggled in a tight little ball underneath. <smile>  I wrote him a note and left to pick up Mags.

I spoke with Larry on the way to the friend's house. Because of a lot of things Ethan had said to me, as well as to his dad,  we decided that it would be best if Ethan saw a psychologist. There are a lot of telltale signs of signs of major depression which we cannot ignore.  This doesn't mean I want to stick him on medication necessarily,  but not doing anything is wrong.

Got Maggie and we headed off at the store. Because of the dogs and their constant "giving" (which is not wanted), it was time to get some cleaner, a baby gate, and a few other preventative items.  When we got home, I went into Ethan's room,  sat down on his bed, gently stroked his hair and quietly asked, "Hey Bubba, how you doing?"  I can't be an angry person for days on end, the way my mom appeared to be.

The three of us started moving furniture and prepping for shampooing.  We had a lot of fun: Ethan was in a good mood, Maggie had  a fun time last night and I was just grateful. We picked up the carpet shampooer,  headed back to the house and got busy shampooing the carpet.  It went fairly quickly.  Yes, yes... It's the first chilly day after a major storm.  That's how I roll.

Picked up an electric stove (fake fireplace) and decided on hotdogs for pre-dinner & ate French bread dipped in balsamic-olive oil with garlic as we played poker.  I said "I have two of a kind and three of a kind" and Maggie responded, "so you have a full house?"...then we watched Fantasia together.   These are the days.  Tomorrow, after a  trip to the dump, there is homework for me & Ethan.  I hope it goes smoothly.  We had a lovely day...another reminder of how life really is beautiful.


Picture - our new heater and fake fireplace.  It KILLS me not having a real one, but I'll have another one day; Checking on Violet.