February 11, 2015

Lights were off around 9:15 last night and I was asleep almost instantly.  My body craved sleep and I gladly offered it.  When the alarm went off at 5:45 (I was going to gently get back into early yoga), there was no possible way I could get up and I somehow managed to re-set the alarm for 7:15, but this, too, was off, so around 6:15ish my logic woke me up and I went to start the coffee.  I’m grateful for that inner-logic which keeps me in check because this morning time is so important to me.  

I was nervous and anxious heading to work; I’m frequently anxious there, though it was much better today than yesterday.  I am well aware that I am sensitive and too “feeling” for many situations, besides the fact that more often than not, my “feelings” aren’t always spot on.  One thing I do know is that high school has changed tremendously in some ways, yet is exactly the same as my days there.  One thing which blows me away is how kids today few boundaries:  Every other word is “fuck” and there is no attempt to lower voices when adults are around.  I remember at least monitoring where this word was said.  The stories of the sexual acts which are discovered blow me away.  I’m grateful what I saw yesterday was minimal and I still wanted to rip my eyes out of my head.  

My new “thing” is hopefully going to aid me in The Loss of Paunch:  No eating after 6:15 (or whenever I have my first cup of coffee in the morning).  I remember a few years ago, when I dropped 28 pounds in 4 months, I did a few simple things”  Yoga, no restaurants, and I didn’t eat past 5:30.  Since my body is a little wounded, the Universe has been sending me “get back to yoga instead of cross fit” signals, so I will listen.  After work, I packed up dinner and headed off to practicum.  

I have missed this!!  I really do enjoy this place and the people here.  I’m going to miss Wendy, Chris and Dr. Weber once I’m done, so I have promised to come visit.  The way things are going, I’ll be in practicum for a good few years, so….

I am looking very forward to group with Jen tomorrow night.  I’m eager to watch her in action and know I’ll learn a great deal.  I was given high praises for last week’s group and I’m thankful for my teaching years…it makes speaking to groups of people much easier.  

Pictures:  The track today;   Trees aren't the only thing that's blossoming on this campus - hormones are in high gear.