This morning was a fantastic one – I had NO milk and I could
tell it was gonna be a great day. The
main reason behind this thought was because I would be driving my sweet Lizzie
Mae Sunshine to school. Yoga went amazingly
well. I’m not saying I’m doing more or
doing better, but I was in touch with my body today and felt stronger than I
have in months. That floppy, gel-like
feeling is dissipating and I like that.
I got into the Westy after re-parking the Mazda (which has
an incredible odor in it that I am
unable to identify). I released the parking
brake, found the right key, and…a cough.
I tried again, there was a little more coughing with some wheezing. The battery light was not looking very happy.
I giggled. “Oh, you!!!” and I hopped out
of the bus. This is no issue for
me. The girl and I are getting to know
one another and I certainly didn’t
expect a perfect bus. I’ll buy a battery
charger after school and then we will see.
Work was fine I wasn’t
cussed out by a student like I was yesterday (I was ready for her words, though
and had my calm artillery prepared. Then
I wrote her up for calling me a bitch), but additional game playing,
manipulating behaviors were all a-brew and I squashed that nonsense right then and there. Your games only hurt you, my dear. I go home to my happy life (I did not say this, of course).
After work, I bought a battery charger, came home and got it
plugged in, then went to Lizzie Mae to see if switches were on. Lo and behold, she started right up. I grabbed my keys and wallet and headed to
Les Schwabb, a place I have not visited before.
Now, here’s the thing. That day
27 years ago on 3/6/88 when I almost died?
It was because of tires, so as painful as it was, I was willing to pay the
high fee (this time…next ti8me I will check more out as I learned about 8 ply
vs 4 ply – which they said I had) because
I do not care to almost die again.
I also had visited with a German auto mechanic who had lots of VWs of
all kinds in the back. He initially said
he would do an oil change and give her a once over. He also gave me tips, such as let her run for
30 seconds when I am finished driving, before turning her off, because she is
air cooled and the cam shafts (if I remember correctly) need to cool down. The RPM is higher in this automobile than
others, so don’t shift gears too early. Then
he mentioned ball-bearings and having her sit there a couple weeks…. Sigh.
I understand why, but I really want to
go on a little adventure. I guess
Moab (12 hours away) has to wait as I don’t see this being done pre-Spring
Break. Maybe up north. We’ll check out Northern CA. While sitting at the car shoe store, I got a text from L who said that Maggie was the only kid who got a 100% on her Spelling Bee tryout!! I'm so proud of that girl's tenacity: this is her third year of trying - both time before she was an alternate who never participated. That girl kicks some serious ass <how did I get so lucky to be chosen by her to be
her mom?!?!> .
Something that really struck me today was seeing two people: One I see at school as this person is a
student, the other is a friend. Both are
dealing with substance – one alcohol, the other meth. I am SO grateful that I am not in that
place. I have been there too often and
it is a one hell of a hole to climb out of.
Addiction is a fire-breathing monster that takes your entire Being
hostage, unwilling to let go. It is not
a journey I wish to revisit. I am not
sure why, but I am able, at music events, to still hang around people who drink and
use drugs and have NO desire to participate.
I play my tape through on a constant loop and can easily see where I end
up. I think the music is a much better drug
for me. Plus, I know people who are
sober or don’t drink, either and hang out with them. I am so glad I got to see my friend today.
<heart smile>
Picture: Lizzie getting some new shoes <I feel like a proud mama - I had so many people smiling at me, letting me turn first, etc. I felt like a homecoming queen!>
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