April 8, 2015

Today was an interesting day.  Another day of self-doubt, of thinking “this makes sense” after deep consideration and then realizing nope…I fucked up again.  Well, maybe not, I’ll see, but I have one foot in two very different areas and my head is about to explode.  I thought this job would be similar – I thought it would be helpful.  I couldn’t have been more wrong.  I think working in a completely  different field, like say, gardening at Lowe’s, would have been much wiser, because then there is no crossing of lines.  I have a crossing here at least once a day and it is very disconcerting for me. 35 more days: 210 more hours. 

There was about an hour of my life I will never get back in having an in-depth listen (I can’t call it a discussion because there is no way to make sense in this conversation unless I had indulged in some hallucinogenic).  A talk about aliens, about light speed, about aliens who come to visit, who talk, who look like me and S-- and D--…..   Then…on the way in hearing a girl say “I can’t believe I’m 15…that I’ve lived that long!!!”  Oh, honey…you have no idea.

I had no time to go home, so I headed straight to Oak Park to the Kombi Haus, where 5 VW buses, ready to go to their homes, where parked outside.  I picked up my window regulator and was given (which was a treat) a beautiful Tshirt which I will wear to work tomorrow.   I haven’t heard anything regarding Lizzie…I’m a little nervous, but I’ll call tomorrow.

As I drove, I saw a Saab and remembered when I first heard of them (I was 14), but thought it was a SOB, which made little sense to me, as we all know S.O.B.s are sons-a-bitches and why would anyone name a car that???       

Still no individual clients, which I need to do my case presentations and my capstone( I can't use group clients).  This whole ‘work’ thing is in the way….shit. If only I could quit my job to focus on my career.

Pictures:  43 going on 17, back in girl's locker room;  a stunning sky today; VW fun!! Might be able to check it out...we'll see.