May 11, 2015

I KNOW it is close, I SEE the light at the end of the tunnel, but Mondays STILL suck.  Up and at ‘em, though.  Seems never ending.  Lots going on this short 3 day work-week, so I gotta git moving.  I was a little saddened when I realized how many calories are in salame at breakfast.  It had been suggested to me that I up my protein intake by eating it and I failed to explore the caloric-intake aspect.  My pudgy little toddler belly was much cuter 42 years ago.

There was a little bit of brightening in the day as it was just me and Swerner in the class, but no matter how you decorate it….  I waddled around all day (Really.  I saw a picture of me at the Wildflower Festival and the 20 pound increase since grade school was glaringly obvious) and was really in a pretty foul mood.  I have noticed that I am quite defensive as of late.  I wonder why.

Zoomed over to grab the kids so we could get our passport pictures taken.  As long as it seems, July 7 is only about 8 weeks away, I need to jump on this.  After this, the kids were delivered home and I headed to my second job.  My client was coming in at 5 and I wanted to get some paper work done.  Despite being told that the client wouldn’t speak with me, we seem to have developed a warm relationship by session two.  This makes my heart smile.  

UPS was closed, so I couldn’t drop off the camera that Ethan needs returned to he can buy the right  one, instead.  They open at 7:30 a.m., so we’ll leave a few minutes early tomorrow morning. Mags was grabbed at track and I joked with her about my gullibility as we drove home…only to get an email from E’s teacher saying he hadn't turned in multiple assignments, despite his bragging about all the assignments he accomplished.  Grateful for AERIES so I can check myself.    I grabbed that kid (well, not literally, rather with portrait of his miserable future if he didn’t start learning that ya gotta do whatcha gotta do.  sorry, y’all…that’s Texan). He finished several of the homework sheets and we will continue tomorrow night.  Works for me, since I can do a case study.

I was thinking today about a very special Mother’s Day message I got yesterday morning from my  friend Gio in Poland.  Later, I thought about different exit ramps (actual exit ramps) I have taken in my life: Midkiff, Wadley in Midland, BürkliPlatz, AfforlternStr in Zürich, Exit 469 in Denton, University in Ft. Worth, Collins in Arlington….  Heading to Southern California, then Northern California.  All these exits, these points in my life which were “just another exit”, yet when I go back, I am thrilled with the mundane, ordinary nature of it.  Dreariness is beautiful!!!  We just can’t see it because we are looking ahead to the next fantastically exciting moment of our life.  I know this because I am guilty of it and do it daily now – thinking of what is happening in Switzerland when I happen to be living in California.  I would like to slow this down, because as I tell my kids frequently, I’ll also have bad days there and life suck there, too.  It just sucks better (my opinion).  Still, there are many lovely things about this place, too….(duly noted). 

Picture: An owl necklace I received today; A hand on the gym door