May 5, 2015

I was in bed early last night, but 3 or 4 episodes of my show kept me from sleeping until the usual  time I go to sleep.  I slept deeply, though.  I think I'm feeling some power...maybe that's the wrong word.  I'm feeling more secure in myself. I hate to make it sound like I'm this scared child...I'm really not.  Promise.  "Act as if" -this is how I walked into work.  As if everything is ok...because really, it is.  I've got it pretty good -it's all a learning experience for me, about myself, about how I play with others.   I noticed something which I understood (my perception, which isn't always right) to be an olive branch:  writing on the board (as an example for a student) of the NFL with Dallas (my team) above Philly (his team).   15 days.

Bell!  Time for supervision!  I mentioned to the buffer (the sub) that I was off to my second job and quickly headed out.  Quick stop to get Lizzie in for an ignition starter and then to Susan.  This time, there were cases to discuss and I was pleased that my initial diagnosis was correct.  I don't have the verbiage yet, but once I'm seeing more clients  it'll be terrific.

CRB!!! Into the car and off to Nevada City where I made record time to sit and wait.  I think if if I lived in this area instead, I might be more peaceful with my surroundings.  This is such a lovely area.

The show was pretty cool.  Other than the fact that I don't know many of these self-proclaimed freaks, I like the vibe better than at Hip shows: it's calmer, more laid back.  I was able to introduce to my dreamboat man-crush-musician, Neal Casal,  by doing some name-throwing (my music sister Shari Neece), but I didn't want to be groupie-like and let him be after the introduction.   I don't think he fell in love with me, but we'll see ("act as if" see above). After break, the vibe shifted a bit...men kept grabbing me and wanting to dance (which brought back Bob nightmares from a BroCo show here in Nevada City a few years ago).  I retreated to the back and stayed to myself.  I truly believe I'm becoming a spinster crone.

As the last song began, I said my goodbyes and headed out.  I didn't want to be caught in the throngs of


people leaving.  "Old" U2 (pre Joshua Tree)was my accompaniment....many of these songs I haven't heard since I lived in Switzerland.  Beautiful, happy memories.  I shaved half an hour in the driving time and am not too late to bed.  This is all prep-work for Hipnic.



Pictures: CRB; The Freak flag; Shadow of a thing; My affirmation for today.