May 6, 2015

Because of the late night, there was so much fear in oversleeping (despite the alarm) that I awoke 40 minutes before the alarm and then couldn’t get back to sleep.  A fine howdoyado there. So hell…up I am.   My earworm this morning were Anything-Chris-Robinson.  That man’s voice has its own soul.  I love it.

Work was fine.  I was not as tired as expected but also not as “perky” as usual.  Still, the descent continues….14 days:84 hours.

I was planning on coming home and getting paperwork completed, yet I ended up trying to nap, instead.  It didn’t work, there were too many “gottas” in my head.  I am feeling somewhat of a complacency issue taking place.  Rather than coming home and getting to work on my one day “off” after work, I rebelled by not doing anything.  Anarchy against Self at its laziest.

I am struggling with this 20 pounds of snuggle material my boobs and belly are holding onto.  I realize the last few years have been busy and stressful, in a number of ways, but the time is over.  I must stop sabotaging myself and stop this ridiculous love affair with nachos.  NONE of them are as good as La Bodega, in my opinion, and I am constantly left wanting every time.  Nachos really are my heroin and it’s time to break the cycle.  NA has taken on a whole new meaning for me.  <wink>

The reason I bring up these little bastards of melted goodness is because I visited my dealer again today (I got a kid’s burrito as well ,what a disappointment).  I went in a daring manner – without a bra on, since every time I get home the clothes come off, unless kids are here.  I’m not sure why  I feel the need to state that each time…they’ve both seen me naked before, for Chris’sakes and I don’t have anything that special.  Still, I felt the need to go bra-less in preparation for living in Europe. OF COURSE there were some kids from my school there (first time ever that I’ve noticed, but then there is a big UM/ElDo game today).  I did well in using my arms effectively to bloke any horrible Came home and like I champ, I ordered TWO graduation robes/hoods/tassles, etc.    I suck.    Looking forward to another hectic, travel-y weekend.

Pictures: High school love; Even in the wind, the Beauty remains.