Thunder made my heart smile this morning...oh, it was going
to be a wonderful day! The rumbling of
the house was like a long awaited embrace from a dear friend. Unfortunately that one hug was all I got. A little rain made up for it, but I had to be
satisfied with the overcast skies and the manic wind.
Work was..work. Ever
interesting experiences from the kids – today I was told this: "When it
rains, my imagination turns into an ocean" as the student pretending to
fish for a a “Great Wild Shark.” There
are 13 work days left: 78 hours.
After work, I headed to job 2 for group. It is anguish to hear the words and see the actions
of myself 25 years ago in these kids.
And yes, there is counseling, and yes, there is listening and support
and encouragement and advice and suggestions and requests and, and, and…but the
bottom line is they learn when they learn.
I’m not sure anything we say or do changes their decisions very much. I’d like to think it does, yet I recall thinking all these adults had no idea what
I was going through…they just didn’t UNDERSTAND
and they didn’t CARE! I was angry, trusting no one, just as many of
these kids are.
I stayed after to get caught up on paper work, for
another hour and then headed to the
grocery store. I know the bottom line
for me is this – food choices. I was
told in Safeway from a co-worker who is no fantastic
shape that it means <and I quote> “no fucking nachos.” I think I am about to make a deal with myself
that for the next 13 days, I can eat nachos, but then this shit is gonna get
real. Apparently paleo is where the solution lies. So many different ways - so many different paths. Sadly they are all nacho-free. <teardrop>
At home I started my dinner (fish tacos) and then figured
out the APR on my credit cards to see who has the lowest rates. They are all ridiculously high. I’m grateful they are paid off. A little Netflixing and then I’ll get to
bed. This is my life for now - paying job, passion job and. bed <but not the fun kind>
Pictures: Fishing for Great Wild Sharks; The beautiful clouds....
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