June 2, 2015

A late night interruption from a panicked friend left me a little sleep deprived, but I didn’t have to drop Maggie off this morning, did I?  Just the boy, followed by supervision directly afterwards.  The issue with this was as such:  in reading about the importance of diving while healthy, I felt the distinct pre-signals of a cold approaching and was unhappy.  Therefore, in proper fashion, I made hot tea…and left it at home.  So after dropping off the boy, I went home, grabbed my tea, and off to the site.

Peter was there and helped set up my computer so the computer program could be accessed remotely, but..as always, something was off and I couldn’t access  files the way I needed to.  I have never been able to use computers the way everyone else does.  There has always, every single time, been an issue with computers.  I am surprised I managed to set up this blog site without issue.

I headed off to my therapist in Sacramento – and discussed my sister(s), a dude..and what I am drawn to with therapy:  sexuality and sexual wounding (at either end – perpetrators and victims).  I do not know why am drawn to this population, and my therapist gave me some wonderful words:  “Do not question:  When we look for answers, we limit our possibilities” and I love this!!  Unfortunately, as I left, I started to feel worse and worse..and I still had a doctor’s appointment with Ethan.  I picked him up, off to the doctors.  While there, he saw a woman in heels and said" Heels are stupid!!  I mean, they don't look stupid, but I think about how it would feel to wear them."  I hope that sweet boy stays like that.  We headed home.

My bed feels almost better in the afternoon than it does at night (almost).  I conked out and slept for a few hours.    Yet suddenly – PANIK!  Wait – that’s not how you spell it… PANIC!!!  I can’t get sick, I have to finish the diving work,  am double-booked for tomorrow with a client and Parent Project!  Day 2 of summer and already the stress level is through the roof.  

 Ethan and I got to it and started working on the diving chapter, which also involved chatting with Steve from AISZ, who has homes in Cancun.  2^nd diving trip is decided upon!  Mid-chapter (it was long) we headed to the store because I needed Nyquil and sore-throat-stuff and I also wanted some healthier cleansing foods.  Somehow, not surprisingly for my world,  I also ended up with 6 graduation cupcakes and 2 boxes of Kashi (healthy, right?) cookies. I suck.

Pictures:  Sun shadows; Legs out a chimney always make me smile; Memories and excitement towards next  Hipnic; Ethan at the grocery store.