October 6, 2015

Today was a helluva day, so I’m starting backwards.

I finished my trainee hours tonight at group with Jen, with half an hour to spare, so my 280.5 face-to face hours therapy hours are complete, along with much more than 57 supervisor hours.  Now, once I get my 7 more personal hours with my therapist, which will happen in the next few weeks with my 2 hours session blocks, I will apply for my Intern number and I am on to the next level.  

One of my kids the one I feel the most protective towards, had some horrible stuff take place yesterday.  I am doing all I can, which may not be very much.  Another client also had a world explode.  Crisis session.

I found out there is no budget for me.  I will not be working here much longer and wrote up a letter of 5 more weeks, but I also contacted a friend from grad school, who gave me a line to a possible (probably?)  work place.  It’s a distance away in Sac, but for what the pay is – hell yes.  Plus, it is what I know.  Fingers crossed.

Supervision went well with my Susan.  Man, I’m going to miss her (I didn’t know I was gone yet at supervision, so please pardon the time warpy-ness).  For all my worry of Europe and Ethan, she suggested we go for a year as an experiment and then re-assess.  Maybe Austria the year after and New Zealand the year after that(she knows NZ people and I have Austrian relatives).  Maybe I’ll just move to a new country every year, thereby achieving gypsy status and never having to settle down or commit to anyone but my kids.

I went to the gym and did a bunch of MMA and 100 more squats, plus more arm stuff.    I negated all of that by later eating nachos and my other berry tart at lunch, plus a few candies we give to the group participants later that night (more time-warp).  I hate my gut and Jake will probably never speak to me again.  My kids went to school and were total angels this morning.  I see such a difference with Ethan.  Such a difference.

Pictures:  Fall, Fall....fall.  I feel like I'm falling, sometimes; Then I get a new perspective - A hawk sits over me as I pass, I hear a song, I see a new view, I hear a story.  I always know I'll be ok, but getting these affirmations from Universe is so helpful to me.